need.. protein..

I'm been exhausted lately. I really think it must be from the lack of nutrients going into my body. So I've decided to change that. Or attempt to, anyway. I definitely need more protein. I hardly get any unless I try.

So far today:

1 Viactiv calcium chew.
1 chewable Centrum multivitamin.

Carnation instant breakfast chocolate shake with skim milk (5 grams of protein in Carnation) with half a scoop of chocolate whey protein added (approx 10 grams of protein).
and I am currently sipping on some water (which I have been wayyyy too lax on lately).

That's pretty good for 10 am, right? :)

I also brought some cottage cheese for lunch.. a little over a serving so about 15 grams of protein. Nice. I know I need to try to get some hard protein in as well.. but hard protein is, well, hard for me to eat right now lol. I'll work on it.

Hope everyone is having a lovely hump day!

puke.

Food troubles are still following me. I've been puking way more than the healthy amount. But I'm trying to be really careful. On Saturday I had some soup with with only minor discomfort for a bite or two. For dinner I tried a tiny piece of pork chop and some asparagus.. except I did a no-no and tried to eat the asparagus first (protein first, always!) ... but I just love asparagus so much, hah. I didn't eat any of the pork chop. And I puked up the asparagus (one of my least favorite things to puke up, btw). Yesterday I had two bites of yogurt, a salad for lunch (took me about 45 min to eat) and half of piece of pizza for dinner. No puking! Yay! No puking today either so far either.. I haven't even been tight today. It IS that time of month (starting last night)... so maybe my band will loosen up a little now. *fingers crossed*

For those who asked.. I had my surgery in Minnesota.. where I grew up and was living at the time. I have since moved to Michigan. There really is only one band filling center where I live here.. and they're not very keen to take new patients if they haven't had the band for at least a year.. and when I moved to Michigan, I had only had the band for a little over a month. (It was a year in mid-April). Plus, I have since had to change insurance companies.. and this new insurance doesn't cover 'pre-existing conditions', lol. So I have to pay out of pocket for my fills. Fills here are over $300. Fills at my clinic in MN are $55. So I schedule my visits around visits home to my family. It's been working okay so far. :)

A little scale talk -- I neverrrr weighed myself when I before the band. Ever. So... really, I have no idea what I weighed throughout high school or before. I do know that I now fit into shorts I wore when I was 16. I know I weigh less now than I did throughout all of college. And I'm pretty sure I'm close to weighing less than I did when I started high school. I guess the only way to tell would be to look at medical records or something.. I'm not too concerned. It's kind of neat though...

fill + food = ouch.

I'm back from a two week hiatus (to South Carolina and Minnesota). In MN, I went for a visit to the doctor. I swear, I'm soooo sensitive to fills it's ridiculous. In Feb I got an unfill because I could barely eat. It's hard for me because I live 10 hrs away from my doctor.. So, she took out 1 cc in Feb and I could eat pretty okay for the first time in forever. (Bring on the bread! ... yeah, it wasn't good). Somewhere in that time period (from Feb - May) I started getting tight again when I ate. I'm not sure why.. I didn't get another fill. I didn't do anything differently. Maybe it was stress, who knows. I started to get tight but I did not start getting FULL. I wanted to eat all the time. So.. I went home for a visit last week and stopped at the doctors. She decided to put in half of what she took out.. thinking that was a nice compromise. Holy tightness. I can't eat ANYTHING. Forget about eating in the morning.. I can barely keep a shake down. It gets a little better in the afternoon. I'm not sure what to do about this.

On the plus side, I'm seeing the scale move a bit. I'm back down to where I was in Feb (I had a total gain of 5 lbs from Feb- May, which isn't all that bad... considering). It's going to be a struggle to get in the proper nutrients if I keep having troubles like this. I've never really had an easy time eating with the band at any stage.. it's always been really, really hard. But I wouldn't change it. It's done amazing thing.

End goal: lose 40 more lbs.
Ideal goal: lose 50.

No timeline.