need. spring.

First off, thanks for the nice comments on my first ever vlog! Next time it will be longer, I promise. Mary (my Mary, not blogger Mary) made fun of me for looking EVERYWHERE but at the camera. Yeah I can't help it. Not very good at eye contact :P ... specially when the 'eye contact' is a little hole on the back of my phone.

As I'm going about my normal life there are always things that pop up and I think to myself, 'oh! I should blog about that'. Then when I sit down to blog... nothing. I can't remember a single thing.

I didn't work out as much last week as I normally do (i say "normally" even though today is the start of week 4, haha). I wasn't feeling very well and didn't really have the motivation to do it. I skipped Tuesday and Friday. and I didn't do anything on the weekend (unless you count jumping around with little kids on indoor inflatable bouncy things). I did get up and work out this morning though! Start to a new week and I'm going to try to stay on track.

I've been feeling kind of out of sorts lately. I feel - ugly, fat and tired. This will pass, I know. Are there days when you know you don't really weigh any more than normal and you just feel like you've gained 50 pounds? This happens to me. Suddenly I become very aware of my stomach when I sit, my face in the mirror, how my pants fit and other things. It really brings a person down, lol. I know it doesn't make much sense. Two years ago I would have killed to be only 10-20 pounds overweight.. I know some of my mood has to do with seasonal affective disorder.. I need spring and I need it soon!

Anyways! Hmm.. something more upbeat? Mondays are just too long for upbeat, haha. Can't wait for tomorrow evening. I love Biggest Loser night! Speaking of Biggest Loser... red team? ugh. They're annoying. I'm not even sure how they got on the show in the first place. I understand that Biggest Loser is consistently getting heavier and heavier contestants and it's only fair to throw in some people who need the help but aren't, say, 500+ lbs... I get that. But there were probably better choices out of their millions of applicants.. you think? Is anyone else reminded of the Helen's daughter (team pink two seasons ago) when looking at this newest pink daughter? Crazy. I love Koli and Sam. They seem like hard workers and they're not playing the game. Gotta respect that. Anyways..

Hope everyone is having a good start to the week. I wish I was home relaxing with my gf instead of at work! lol.

My cool girlfriend has two different colored eyes. How awesome is that? :D